vine of the soul
Last week I got back from an extremely healing trip in my homeland. It was lovely to play some records in a club, see some good friends, reminisce of our wild nostalgic clubbing days and connect to the vine of the soul - Mother ayahuasca.
I wanted to share some of my experience with you all as I feel it's relevant to my work. The past few months have been quite heavy and very serious, all work no play. But after 3 years from my last experience all arrows pointed towards me reconnecting with the plant spirits. My main intention was to come back to trust. Trust in life, the universe, myself and spirit. The ceremony was so beautiful and joyful it allowed me to smile like never before, to feel love and come back to deep trust in the medicine, spirit and my path. She welcomed me with her presence like a long lost mother to drink from her bosom of love.
Previous ceremonies have hit me quite strongly especially physically and then I would battle with surrendering into it. I have a lot of fear before doing plant medicines and rightly so they should not be taken lightly. This ceremony was totally different and highlighted my strength and all of the self work I have put in over the 3 years, which is essential being comfortable with the uncomfortable. I managed to sit up strongly throughout the journey and have real presence with the medicine, which was so empowering. I felt joy again like never before and could feel my soul releasing negativity like deleting the cache on a computer. There was a strong masculine, shamanic and native theme running throughout my ceremony giving me clear insight into the next phase for me as a space holder.
I feel motivated, strong, positive and so excited for life, bursting with ideas and wanting to get organised. Although Ayahuasca is a feminine spirit I received so much healing within my masculine. I feel like I have grown more into my role as a man and father for my family. Which leads me onto my WHY I drink this beautiful medicine - It is to be better for myself, my family, my partner and my community. It really is the vine of the soul and just makes you better, and connected to your authentic self. It is used indigeonous cultures to heal illness which they see starting on a soul level even if the symptom is a physical one.
Therefore you still need to take time to integrate your experience and do the self work outside of the ceremony. I feel very fortunate to have a dear brother who has invested his life's work in healing people with the plants. Someone who is authentic, has been well trained and has dieted a range of plants in the amazon to make sure the space is safe and protected. One of the other main plants he works with is Mapacho, a sacred tobacco. Mapacho is a masculine spirit that is very cleansing and protects you in space, it's quite worrying to know that many people drinking in the UK dont use this or have worked with dieting other plant spirits to bring that safety into space. Which is the most important thing to consider before you embark on this kind of experience.
Time for us to remove the masks we wear and come back to the truest versions of ourselves. I'm so grateful for the plant spirits and the healing they bring.